And you yourself,
some impossible Tuesday
in the year Two Thousand and Nine, will walk out
among the black stones
of the field…
— Galway Kinnell, 1978
I did that, and it didn't go as expected. For one, I'm not the person in the poem, though I share certain affinities with her. I'm fond of looking at events as potential memories, of thinking I'm learning when I might not be, of burrowing deeply into sorrows — so many imaginary bones — when I really needn't, and, above all, of contemplating "the still undanced cadence of vanishing," that marvelous thing that only we humans seem to take notice of, for better or for worse. But things are different now from what they were then. As I'm sure you know, Galway. People speak more directly — though it doesn't always mean communication is improved. We listen to all kinds of crazy music, including music that people speak on stage and music that lasts 639 years. We hardly have time for poetry anymore, and when we do it's the kind that's in greeting cards. Most of us, in fact, are far dumber than we were then. A black stone might be mistaken for a hand-held device. And fontanels, which are supposed to keep rain from hitting the brain, could be misidentified as a global brand-name. We are, Galway, a long way from the "little sleep's head" of which you spoke, though I, personally, appreciate the sentiment. I love black stones in the rain and have some, even, in my soggy yard. I too would prefer that the sun never go down on good days and that my house never experience trembling or falling. Catching a glimpse of a kite in my father's angled eye, rather like the moon viewing an earthly angel (to twist your lines a bit), is something I have done and remember as vividly as I remember the first time someone told me that the wages of dying is love. These are all gorgeous expressions of our mutual beliefs and perceptions. But, you must realize, unlike the comforted child of your poem, we are still screaming upon waking from a nightmare. We're still clingingly searching for the hard permanence of stars and loving kisses. Many rats do emerge alive from plague events, and men now roam the earth like fleas. We're all too aware that the only path left us is that of vanishing languages and shrinking icecaps. We no longer think that grown-ups never die. All of us, in short, know that here is the world and it is largely darkness.
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